I’ve been gone for so long. I fell into that abyss that one comes to when they finally get pregnant and have said sought after child. It got very lonely, losing my friends, the same friends that helped me through countless failures. I miss the old blogging days, but honestly, I don’t have the time anymore. Well, I just wanted to put that out there. I miss you guys!
Across All Borders is the name. They are a new organization working to provide orphan care and outreach to families living in extreme poverty in Guatemala and eventually countries around the world. They are having a fundraiser by selling cookbooks for $15. I can’t wait to get mine. Terry is a mom in one of the meetup groups that I belong to and I think her passion and drive are admirable. Please visit their website and help them achieve their goal.
We’ve been getting some serious smiles from this little guy and a few belly laughs. I’m looking forward to more of those. Here he is at 3 months.
2008 was filled with some of the most difficult and fulfilling moments of my life. In January I finished up from recovering from a severe case of ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome and looked forward to finally bringing home two of our precious embryos. The big day was January 19th. It was an amazing experience and I had high hopes of this procedure working. I went on bedrest for the two week wait and my beta’s came back very high. Three weeks later we miscarried one of the embryos. It was a frightening experience, but I knew in my heart that the remaining embryo would be okay. I developed a subchorionic hematoma and went back on bedrest for five more weeks. As it turned out, all of that bedrest produced a very healthy, 9 pound 7.5 ounce baby boy! Boy was he big! The pregnancy was difficult in the first and third trimesters. As big and as swollen as I got, I missed having Luke in my belly after he came out.
Parenthood has changed us a bit. We’ve forgotten how to clean house and now there are diapers all over the house (clean ones mostly). I haven’t cooked a single meal in three months! That one really disturbs me. I love to cook, but who has time when you can’t seem to put your baby down? I’m taking full advantage of his tiny size. I hold him as much as possible because one day I know that I won’t be able to.
And when my back is hurting from walking the floor around my living room sofa after an hour because he will not stop crying and go to sleep, I remind myself that he is gaining about a pound a month and that I will regret it if I complain about it. I tell myself it will make me stronger and I will be able to hold him longer if I just keep on walking with him.
This was the BEST, most difficult year ever. I would do it all over again and count all my blessings.
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I wanted to share this photo and wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday. Luke is gaining weight and the pediatrician is happy with the gain. I still feel better seeing what he is eating by pumping and bottle feeding, but it is so much easier and more satisfying to breastfeed. He goes comatose when breastfeeding, the reason why I get some time to write this post. I miss catching up with everyone. I don’t know how you guys do it … raise babies and blog. You’re a bunch of super mommies in many ways.
So, here’s our little bundle of joy with Santa. I thought it came out incredibly cute since Luke was sleeping. Many thanks for a wonderful memory from Welliver photographers.
BTW, can anyone tell me why my blog looks like this? I didn’t move the side bar to the bottom and I didn’t change the font to this type. I must have gremlins living in my computer. I need help and I don’t have the time to investigate on how to fix these problems.