A look back at 2008

2008 was filled with some of the most difficult and fulfilling moments of my life. In January I finished up from recovering from a severe case of ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome and looked forward to finally bringing home two of our precious embryos. The big day was January 19th. It was an amazing experience and I had high hopes of this procedure working. I went on bedrest for the two week wait and my beta’s came back very high. Three weeks later we miscarried one of the embryos. It was a frightening experience, but I knew in my heart that the remaining embryo would be okay. I developed a subchorionic hematoma and went back on bedrest for five more weeks. As it turned out, all of that bedrest produced a very healthy, 9 pound 7.5 ounce baby boy! Boy was he big! The pregnancy was difficult in the first and third trimesters. As big and as swollen as I got, I missed having Luke in my belly after he came out.

Parenthood has changed us a bit. We’ve forgotten how to clean house and now there are diapers all over the house (clean ones mostly). I haven’t cooked a single meal in three months! That one really disturbs me. I love to cook, but who has time when you can’t seem to put your baby down? I’m taking full advantage of his tiny size. I hold him as much as possible because one day I know that I won’t be able to.
And when my back is hurting from walking the floor around my living room sofa after an hour because he will not stop crying and go to sleep, I remind myself that he is gaining about a pound a month and that I will regret it if I complain about it. I tell myself it will make me stronger and I will be able to hold him longer if I just keep on walking with him.

This was the BEST, most difficult year ever. I would do it all over again and count all my blessings.

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